I have Euclid’s Elements on one side of me and Hilbert’s Foundations of Geometry on the other side. I’m trying to build a bridge in my mind between the two. I find it desperately lonely and hard work. I labor on it for at least 12 hours each day.
The thing that makes it even harder than it should be is that I have no one to talk to about it. The major parts of my thoughts are locked in solitary confinement.
That’s the nature of desire though. It’s the thing most personally felt even though the least most noticed by others.
Let’s call the situation a secret romance.