Oddly relaxed

For some odd reason that I don’t know, I feel insanely quietly relaxed–as though a fever broke.  The night beckons me to sit in the easy chair and read Proust.  I’m toward the end of The Fugitive then I only have one more volume to go.

Ah, relaxed.

Published in: on November 4, 2011 at 9:44 pm  Leave a Comment  

Desire or lack thereof

So fucking awesomely bored–maybe, that’s why I spend 10 to 12 hours each day writing a stupid geometry book. (And you’ve to get up early in the morning to do that.)

But I like it. At one point in my dismal life, it was a dream.

New Year’s resolution 2010

I don’t make New Year’s resolutions when the calendar new year arrives.  The prospect of a long dark chill winter in Chicago after a holiday that depresses me does not lead to positive thoughts conducive to the exercise.  However, when spring arrives and the daylight grows longer, I can look back at the previous year with some perspective and look forward to things that seem important to me.

I spent last year studying mathematics and not much else worthy of mentioning.  I learned some hyperbolic geometry and such.  I don’t regret spending an inordinate time doing it. I also finished writing the fourth draft of a novel, so my mornings were not wasted.  Yet writing is what I do in the morning by habit and deserves no honorable mention.

This year, I will stay at home more at night and read and study philosophy and the Western classics.

There you have it–my new year’s resolution.

Published in: on March 24, 2010 at 9:48 am  Leave a Comment  

Free fall

I thought I was in free fall other times before, but now I’m really in free fall.  You land hard eventually after free fall.  For now though, it feels so good.

Published in: on February 12, 2010 at 1:56 pm  Leave a Comment  


We’ve been away from Raymond Carver’s poetry for too long. So, here goes.


Woke up this morning with
a terrific urge to lie in bed all day
and read. Fought against it for a minute.

Then looked out the window at the rain.
And gave over. Put myself entirely
in the keep of this rainy morning.

Would I live my life over again?
Make the same unforgivable mistakes?
Yes, given half a chance. Yes.

Published in: on January 25, 2010 at 3:02 pm  Comments (2)  

A chill in the air

A morning colder than Russell and Whitehead’s Principia Mathematica.  Coffee and the sky reddening in the east doesn’t seem to help.

Published in: on January 3, 2010 at 8:48 am  Leave a Comment  

Back in the USA

Landed at Chicago O’Hare at 1247. Now, I’m at Pippin’s drilling down Maker’s and waiting for the Cubs game to start. Golly, things really do tend to even out, or return to a state of inertia.

Published in: on October 2, 2008 at 6:42 pm  Leave a Comment